Alone in the ruble.

As the light vanishes my world starts to crumble,

And I come to find myself alone in the ruble,

I look to my left and no one is standing there,

I look to my right just to find an empty chair,

And right behind me is the feeling of loneliness,

That comes to claim me back into its vastness,

As I start to surrender once again to this feeling,

I hear a voice inside me telling me to keep running,

I look forward and I see a tiny little silhouette.

I start running with my face covered in sweat,

I come closer and closer to the person standing there,

Now I start to feel warm and see light, and feel the air,

I finally arrive at her side and she offers me her hand,

She asks me “Would you like to create something grand?”

I want to be…

I want to be the guy that every morning makes you smile,

I want to be the the guy that makes waking up worthwhile,

I want to be the guy that wipes away your tears,

I want to be the guy that takes away all your fears,

I want to be the guy that walks with you hand in hand,

I want to be the guy that takes you to a new land,

I want to be the guy that exists only to protect you,

I want to be the guy that always comes to your rescue,

I want to be the guy that writes you love letters,

I want to be the guy that gives you pretty flowers,

I want to be the guy that holds you tight when you’re cold,

I want to be the guy with who you build a household,

I want to be the guy that stops you from falling,

But darling honestly I just want to be your everything.

A new day…

As the sun comes in through my window,

I turn on my bed to find a face that I know,

I lay there next to you taking in your beauty,

I caress your cheeks and brush your hair gently,

And I wish for this moment to last forever,

Yet I know that we have an unknown future.

I might wake up tomorrow and you won’t be here,

I might find myself alone in a room shedding tears.

So I must ask you that if you must leave me,

You must teach me how to forget you completely.

When I see you..

I slowly get close to you and as I get close,

Everything about me starts to act weirdly,

My heart no longer beats at a steady pace,

And instead the pace becomes faster and wildly,

I want to run quickly to where you are standing,

But my legs are scared and they’re shaking.

I start to feel hot and my hands are sweaty,

My mind starts having a thousand thoughts,

All of them putting my stomach in knots,

My lungs feel like they’re lacking oxygen,

and now all my muscles start to stiffen.

As I stand there thinking I should fly away,

You run to me, you hug me and make it all okay.

How.

How can the outer world sky be so calm and starry?

When the sky of my world is turbulent and it’s scary.

How can the outer world be so happy and carefree?

When my inner world feels sad, cloudy, and rainy.

How can the outer world be so bright and colorful?

When my inner world is dull and holds nothing special.

How can life and time keep moving at a steady pace?

When I want it to stop while I clean the tears of my face.

Would you…

If I was to tell you that I feel really lonely,

Would you rush to my side to keep me company?

If I was to tell you that I am lost in the dark,

Would you come to my side and be the tiniest spark?

If I was to tell you that I am tired of walking,

Would you come to my side to keep me from falling?

If I was to tell you that my sky is no longer blue,

Would you come tear it down and build me a new?

If I was to tell you that my world is colorless,

Would you paint it and get rid of its bleakness?

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Random thoughts.

If I could I would want to stay with you forever,

If I could I would want to be even stronger,

If I could I would want to get rid of all my worries,

If I could I would want to live in fantasy stories,

….

How is it my fault when you were the one that walked away,

How is it my fault when I was the one you betrayed,

How is it my fault when I gave you everything I had,

How is it my fault when I was always there whenever you felt sad.

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The thing that changed.

I used to close my eyes and everything was dark,

Now I close them and everything is bright.

I used to get tired from life and I would just fall back,

Now I get tired from life but you hold me upright.

I used to get cold and lonely on a winter night,

But now you are there to hold me tight,

And to tell me that “everything is alright.”

I used to hate the rain because it made me sad,

But you made me love it by creating an amazing memory,

By teaching me that a kiss under the rain is not so bad.

I used to feel worthless and most of the time lonely,

But now I feel happy, loved and I want to enjoy this ride.

What changed from those times? Well, now you are by my side.

K.A.T.E.

Kissing you makes me forget about everything else,

Allowing me to rest on your lap puts me at ease,

Talking to you releases some of the burden in my soul,

Embracing you on my arms makes me feel whole.

Loneliness

Once again I’m sad and alone in an empty room,

The light fades and the darkness starts to bloom,

In this dark world nobody seems to understand,

How my loneliness is more than I can withstand,

The rain that falls down makes my soul cry,

I tried to find comfort in her arms but she is not nearby,

She is at home and doesn’t let me come see her,

I want at least one word telling me that I matter,

I want at least two minutes of her complete attention,

But instead I get hurtful words from this person.

At that moment I want to fly high up into the sky,

Where nothing else matters and watch the clouds pass by.

But my wings are broken from my previous struggles,

So once again I have to bear my pain alone with my loneliness.

No title…

What am I suppose to do when you cry?

Do I tell you its ok when I know this is a lie?

How do I stop you from leaving my side?

Is it by asking you to become my bride?

What am I to do to keep you always smiling?

Is it by giving you fancy jewelry and clothing?

How do I keep you from getting mad?

Is it by always behaving and do nothing bad?

 

Its so easy to tell you hi

but its so hard to say good bye,

Its so easy to love you,

but its too hard to forget you,

Its so easy to make you cry,

but its hard to make you smile,

Its so easy to tell you a lie,

but its really hard to tell you the truth.

The only true though is that you have my hearth.

Untitled…

As the first ray of sunshine hits my sleeping face,

I turn around on my bed just to fine an empty space,

Reality is cruel as my eyes open wide,

It shows me that you are no longer by my side,

As I lay awake I start to think of my mistakes,

Of all the lies that I once said with a straight face.

I never wanted to be the cause for your sadness,

I just wanted to be a part of you happiness,

When was it that I became so selfish,

Were this some reasons on why our love perish?

Yet again

Yet again I find me and you in another argument,
Yet again I made you cry and I'm full of disappointment,
Yet again I saw you walking out the door,
Yet again I’m left alone in a room that feels sad,
Yet again I try to find a way to make you come back,
Yet again our smiling pictures lay on the dirty floor,
Yet again I sit alone on the side of my bed,
Yet again a lot of hurtful things were said,
Yet again I find myself missing you,
Yet again I see you in everything I do,
Yet again I see you everywhere I go to,
Yet again I spend the day with my heart split in two,
Yet again night falls and the moon shines on an empty bed,
Yet again I type and E-mail that I can’s seem to send,
Yet again I find myself in what seems like an endless night,
Yet again I try to figure out how to make things right,
Yet again I find an excuse to drive by your house,
But now is different and your someone else’s spouse.

I can be…

I can be everything you want from this world,

I can be what keeps you warm when your cold,

I can be your protection from the wind,

I can be the light the shines in the darkest night,

And when you're in trouble I can become your knight,

I can be the water when you're dying of thirst,

Or I can simply be the chair where you may rest,

I can be the medicine that takes away your pain,

Or the guy that breaks you free from your chains,

I can be the guy that makes you smile every day,

I can become the map that guides you along the way,

I can be the guy that gives his shoulder for you to cry on,

I can become the one thing you can always rely upon,

I can be the guy that dries away your tears,

while caressing you and telling you there's nothing to fear,

I can be the guy that tells u everyday "you're beautiful",

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